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wellllll, the apocalypse happened. this lame tard world is probably hell and we all actually did die a weekish ago. it was so intense and gnarly that it was instantaneous and we didn't even know it happened. but really, it was anticlimactic for how long everyone talked about.

so this journal is going to be a huuuuge 2012 wrap up. and hopefully in 2013 i'll be alive and active and less of a lameass. hurrrrr.

i hope everyone's winter is going swimmingly and everyone is safe, warm and happy. i'd love to hear what you did for the holidays or just whatever you're doing in general. i don't talk to many people on here anymore and i think it's time to fix that. happy new year lurkers!~

the man and i are still happily together and playing house. my puffalump kitty is here with us and is mostly settled in now, still a weirdo about some noises and things though. but he's a spazz. the man has two dogs, one that is visiting his ex until march and one that is our super senior. she's 16 and very, verrrrry sadly, we are putting her down in a couple days. she's just falling apart on a tremendous level currently and it's just time. it's going to be so sad and quiet without her grunts and clicky toenails clacking about the wood floors. we also just scattered my grandpa's ashes on saturday, which was almost 2 years overdue. it was a really beautiful place that we found on a hill top in a nice ridge near my parents' house and we had a nice casual ceremony. the man and i also threw a christmas party that went off great. i made drunken eggnog which the man got blitz on. he made a bread pudding with rum sauce yule log. and everyone brought tasty treats to share, so we had a fat fest and a white elephant exchange. overall, christmas went well in regards to the party, friends, and family.

and i have a smashed face update. i totally got lazy and haven't kept up with keeping those updated. back at the very end of november i went to my ophthalmologist for my 4 year surgery annual check up. Basically it was uneventful and was just a goodbye appointment basically. He's released me from annual check ups and said that everything looks better than expected and is doing perfect and there's no need for me to visit every year. It was a strange bittersweet and kind of unreal appointment. it's always felt like it was just something i did now and will do forever. but it was great news to be told i'm good to go, go fly away little bird.

whaaaaat else.....i'm still waiting to hear if my two embroidered pieces got accepted into the art show. i should know tomorrow. i'm going to have to cross everything and hope i make it.
and tonight/tomorrow i am going to go on a baking frenzy for goodies to bring to the new year's party i'm attending. basically i've spent the entire day online staring at delicious looking food trying to decide what to make. fffff. i just settled on lemon pound cake with glaze and rum balls. yay balls!~

.....i had things to talk about and was excited to sit down and prattle in this journal but now i'm braindead and don't remember what i wanted to do.
basically, i don't know where 2012 went, it fly by me so fast, but it was a good year. a good year of happiness. we traveled to several places i have never been. we've gotten closer and are still just as happy, if not happier, than when we started out as a couple. i never knew i could feel like this with someone and i never want it to stop. i made my very first sale on etsy, as well as a handful of other sales. i've conquered crocheting skills that i never thought i would and am so proud of myself that i can make what i am and that my stitches look so clean. i don't care how cocky that sounds, i am proud that i'm not a sloppy crocheter. i'm excited that my art has taken a new direction and i've felt more artistically inspired this year than i have in a long time, even if i'm still not putting out that much. i've definitely come to do art in phases, that i'll be all about drawing for a week and then i'll be all about painting the next and then i'll suddenly be all about clay and so on and so forth. i have many pieces of art half painted because i got distracted by a different medium and uninspired to paint. derp.

i'm really determined this upcoming year to expand my art goods in the public eye. i will get my ass into more gallery shows. i will get my crafty crap into craft shows and hopefully pimp my etsy page so my sales will grow. i plan to dabble in more brand spankin new mediums this year. i'm on a mission to learn how to solder, how to cast molds and resin, and working with metal plates to cut designs for jewelry. i just got a dremel for christmas and i am so pumped about how many doors have just flown open. power tools really scare and intimidate me, but i've been dreaming about this one and can't wait to use it. it doesn't register in my brain all scary like a fucking table saw or bandsaw. i guess the way i've logged it away is that when i think of dremels, i don't think of my fingers flying across the room.

i also think i'm going to take my ass to ax and frolic in a really badass cosplay, but i will not be selling. i really want to make an epic costume this year and for whatever reasons, i completely prefer trying to bring something to life as accurately as possible instead of a completely original design. it's like my brain gets overloaded with the endless possibilities and then i have epic sobbing meltdowns and can't get a grip like a spaz. and in regards to not selling at ax, i've decided i'm not into that crowd since they mostly stick their noses up at me. i'm not going to waste my time trying to jerk everyone off there just so i can break even or make a little money. way too many snooty people that were upset that i didn't have commericial prices for things that took me hours to make with two little fucked up hands. yeaaaah. i left ax with a pretty bad taste in my mouth.

back to a nicer topic....i've been crocheting up a storm, making soap cozies for christmas gifts for everyone and their mother, and making lots of hats. i'm having fun and definitely doing some stitches/styles i've never done before, so yay for learning new tricks! also, my parents got me a really old and pretty mannequin head for christmas, so now i have a super accessible model for all of the hats that i make and never share online because i feel like a fucktard taking photos of them on my head. so be prepared for some hat smothering. i'm way into making square hats that have big tassels on them. so much fun.

soooo yeah. i think that covers enough for now since i can't think of any other shit to ramble about. ffffffffffffffffffff *rolls*



oh, and the tv show "parks and recreation" is fanfuckingtastic. go watch it. gawd, i love ron swanson. ffffffff